Who am I?

I am many things.

I am smart. I am insecure. I am capable of overcoming everything, but I suck at it when I know someone else is in on the process.

I am engaged to be married on March 17th to an incredibly intelligent, beautiful woman who constantly surprises me with her ability to be my friend and support me.

I am a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. I believe that there is a God and that Jesus Christ was who He said He was - namely, the Son of God. I believe that He died for my sins and for your sins, and that through Him, we can receive the greatest gifts God has to offer.

I am a musician. If musical talent were money, I would be the 1%. I can play anything I pick up and I can generally fake it until I know what I'm doing. I have been in several bands that have had music featured on the radio. I have made 2 music videos and played to thousands of people at shows over the last 10 years.

I am a student at Seattle University, getting a Master's Degree in Psychology. I am kind and caring and have a burning desire in me to be able to help the people around me live better lives.

I get scared easily but I never, ever quit. I may be weak, but I am indestructible. I am able to make things happen in my life. I am proud, and this is a difficulty for me to overcome. I hate asking for help, but as I get older I realize more and more that I have to ask for help on a fairly regular basis. I feel guilty for asking for things for myself, but I feel compelled to do it anyway. I firmly believe that I will not fail at life, no matter what. There is literally nothing that can overcome my ability to overcome.

I generally think I am a good writer (though a few sentences in here are cringe worthy to say the least).

I have a good intuition with other people. People trust me. I have a hard time really trusting other people, but there are people I trust with my life. I make quick judgments but try to overcome them. Sometimes I even do. I have a lot of faith in the general goodness of humanity but very little in myself.

I am a pot of contradictions and logical fallacies.

I have the finest friends on earth, and I mean that. I would put my group of friends against anyone else's group of friends, and I have literally 0 doubt that my friends would never come up wanting. I have the kinds of friends that movies wish they had. I love them and cherish them with every ounce of my being and would cut off my fingers for them if they needed me to.

I am scared of the future but believe that, ultimately, it will be beautiful.

I am complex, but I make sense to myself. I am sorry for the difficulties that being around me brings with it, but ultimately, I'm not too sorry, because despite everything wrong with me, I am a good person.

I am Taylor McCarrey. Hear me roar.